Inhibition… not something I would associate with me. I mean, I am quite extroverted, loud, occasionally brash and crude… I have no problem telling perfect strangers (yes internets, that’s you) and plenty of not-so-strangers all sorts of details about my life. Intimate and not. So why is it that when talking to B on the phone that I clam up?

B and I have been talking and texting pretty frequently since he left for home. Among these conversations, we’ve discussed my going out there to visit. Which I am doing. The conversations have frequently ended up discussing that night we spent, the enjoyment from it and the excitement of seeing each other again. Well, we’ve ended up getting pretty worked up during these, and the other night he made a request from me. Yes, you know where it’s going… He wanted me to describe what I wanted us to do when we next see each other. I know he was hoping it would go into the phone sex direction, which I don’t do. I just don’t. I’ve tried it before, and I just feel silly. I mean, I can send the naughty text messages and tease w/the best of them – without getting into salacious detail. But any further than that and I clam up. I have no problem telling someone what I want – in person. I’ve been known to walk up to the guy that I’m with in a crowded room and whisper something completely inappropriate to see the reaction I get (generally good, hee!), but I can’t do this? WTF?! Luckily, he’s not into pressuring me to do something that I’m uncomfortable with.

What’s up with the whole fascination with phone sex anyway? I’ve been told that I have a good voice for it, but I just don’t understand the fascination. Does a guy really get off by just listening to that? Wouldn’t visual stimuli be better? When I’ve been asked before, I generally think "why don’t you just go watch a porn? Wouldn’t that work just as well?"

So with B being great about not pressuring me, now I’m curious. How many of you have done it? Why? Someone, please to explain this to me. (I want some comments, damnit! LOL!) If you have, would you do it again? If not, why?

And damnit, how can I be less inhibited when it comes to phone and messaging devices?? ๐Ÿ˜‰ I mean, I’d better get used to them as we are 3000 miles away from each other. Thoughts? Suggestions? If you’re uncomfortable answering in the comments, feel free to email me. ๐Ÿ™‚